Quick there is a Fee in a Tree.... pickin apples that is... Fee gets down and dirty with her apple farmin' self.

Desk mates and pumpkins.... Danielle and I took this so that we had something to put on our desk. We are cute.

The whole lot of us at the Apple Orchard. It was a good time. Dannielle, Fee and I even got a little countryed up for the event.

Everybody loves a party

Me and Heather, two fine ladies...well I'm not so much at that point in time but Heather is. I kinda look like I was hit by a bus.
" Hi, my name is Kristin and I think that I have a problem... I am obsessed with New Kids on the Block and I think that I am okay with that."
Char Char say's, "Holly put the camera away... don't you even... ugh, you are in so much trouble."

Ahh.. I am so pretty... even after a long night out on the town...

Fam Pic.

We are the cutiest family in the world...

Yea, a fun pic from Darrick's wedding... yes I am classy.

One Fun Night in the Cities...

Hey Ya'll,
I survived an evening in the cities with Kristin, Heather and Char. Unfortunately I did get a little dramariffic but it was dealt with and now everything is okay. I have some fun pics but am having difficulties getting them to upload so I will try again tomorrow. ONLY 5 MORE DAYS UNTIL I COME HOME!!! YEA!!! Okay I am going to head into Mankato to a party so I will hopefully write more tomorrow when I have time between my apple pickin' gig and grading speeches :( ugh. Alright, Have a Beautiful Evening!
-Northern Princess

If you could only see...

If you could only see the way she loves me then maybe you would understand. Why I feel this way about our love and what I must do. If you could only see how blue her eyes can be when she says... when she says she loves me.

I was listening to some tonic this moring on the way to class and felt inspired to share some lyrics with you all. I hope that you enjoyed it. Can you get the hidden meanings??? Are there hidden meanings?? what do ya think?

I hope that all is well down in the southland. Peace and Love to all.

-Northern Princess

p.s. it is cold here in minnesota, I am wearing a sweater, but DAMN I LOOK HOT! everyone has told me so.

In case you didn't know...

Just in case you may have forgotten.

I AM A PRINCESS. Tee Hee. Now this northern princess has to go and prep for class.

Things that I don't like...

I don't like...
Stepping in liquid when I have socks on.
Listening to people talk when I am doing something really important.
Answering stupid questions.
Waking up wondering if I actually said good-bye or if I just passed out.
Writing things that make no sense and wondering if they were done correctly but not
wanting to try again.
Printing a million pages on my printer because someone was to lazy to create a course packet.
Paying Bills.
Calling my landlord every month because they have messed up on my bill, again.
Hearing how what I am doing is wrong and then being asked for my input.
Telemarketers that interrupt my blogging.
Feeling like I run out of time for everything.
Having to go to school early when all I want to do is lay in bed.
Forgetting to buy stuff on my trip to the store.
Inside jokes that I am not a part of.
Explaining my inside jokes to everyone.
Hiding.
Laughing all the time and then having to explain why I am laughing because really, I don't
know.
Missing home, when I am happy here.
Trying to explain and justify my missing home.
Bad hair days.
Days when my jeans are a little to tight and I dont know why cause I only had one meal
yesterday.
Doing laundry when I have 8 loads and will have to go to the all night laundry mat.
Forgetting birthdays.
Forgetting my own birthday.
My student's thinking that I am 28.


Just a short list of the things that I don't like today.

Wednesday, Wednesday...

I have been trying to post for the last two days but everytime I got started I got distracted. The tournament went well. I love judging almost more then I love competing. I hate school, not because it is overly hard but because of some of the people here stress me out beyond belief. I just don't think that I need to deal with that.

I am avoiding writing a paper that is due tonight at six, I suppose that I should get started soon though. I think I will do that and then post again later.

Okay,
Bye

Okay so this is not the best picture of me, I look angry, but I'm not cause I have HOT new hair. I wish the the pic would have turned out better, I guess I will have to have someone take it of me and not try to do a self-portrait.

TGIT

I know that most people say " THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!" I say, "THANK GOD IT'S THURSDAY!!!" I only have like 4 hours until this week is over. Well class wise that is. I will spend the rest of the day dealing with the crazy amount of homework that I have because I am traveling this weekend. I know that when we get back on Monday morning I am going to be worthless so i need to get as much of everything done as possible. I HAVE HOT HAIR! My new hair is hot and I even fixed it on my own today and it still looks HOT! I love it. (pictures will come soon). Anyways, I need to head off so that I can get my reading done for class. Talk to you all very soon again.

Oops...

I guess that this Northern Princess had a worse night then she thought. From the sound of her posts last night, she is very sad. But today this Northern Princess is fine again. She thinks that bad conversation and a few too many beers may have affected her judgment on her reality. Because really, it isn't all that bad. Just understand that if she had a choice, she would not choose those people as the ones she gets to know. There would be others.

But this Northern Princess is good today. She gets to coach some poems and do laundry and be lazy all day because it is Sunday and that is what Northern Princesses do on Sundays.

...

I miss understanding.
I miss direction.
I miss laughter.
I miss crying for purpose.
I miss broken hearts with you.
I miss talking.
I miss singing.
I miss dancing.
I miss laziness.
I miss fulfillment.
I miss enlightenment.
I miss questioning.
I miss everything that I used to be.
I miss touch.
I miss holding onto one another and not being afraid.
I miss time.
I miss YOU.
I miss my HOME.

Sometimes in life you find that there are times when you don't want to let anyone in and then you realize by hiding you are only making that wonderful part of you lost. This Northern Princess never wanted to lose that part of her, unfortunately in the move, that has happened. This Northern Princess is torn between who she really is and being what everyone wants her to be. All she really wants is to love everyone and be loved in return, but when those around her don't want that she doesn't know what to do.

I just want to get through the day and not want to run home to my mom and dad crying, someone please try and understand. Someone please listen. Someone please love me.

I am so sick of being lonely that the tears don't even come anymore. I fake my way through happiness because I am tired of being asked what is wrong. I watch "Tommy Lee goes to college," for the mere glimpse that I will see a little piece of home. I call my friends and tell them that everything is okay when all I really wish is for someone to hold me and wipe my tears. I wish that the tears didn't come on a daily basis. I wish that I felt good.

There are two happinesses in my life right now. The thought that I am going to make it through. And someone who doesn't care about my past. Someone new in my life that I can count on Tuesday night phone calls and unjudgemental laughter. Someone who makes me feel like home. Someone who lets me cry and doesn't tell me that things will get better. Someone that makes me feel unshattered, whole. I would give my life to feel that everyday. Unfortunately, that will not happen and I will wake up tomorrow and feel the same way I did today. Numb.

Guess what I found...

Today while cleaning my house I discovered the "Hit List" from the drive up here so I thought that even if it is a few months late, I will share it with you all anyway!

Here we go...

1. .... "No Holly, it's maize..."
2. "HoChunk(s)!? Isn't that what I did in the kitchen sink this morning?"
3. Winnebago High School--Home of the Indians
4. Little Priest Tribal College
5. Pony Express & Heritage Express Gas Stations
6. "Winnebago, maybe that's why their vans suck." -Holly
7. "Bestfreinda, you know what I'm gonna do?!?," Bestfreinda replies, "Not get addicted to gambling."
8. Pop goes in the cup holder not on top of the car.
9. "Oh, my chicken fell down, I'll find it."
"Holly Marie Manning, there was a curve, a hill and a truck."
10. BASE, "that's a giant game of tag!"

Hope all of you can enjoy those, if not I'm sorry but I would be more then happy to tell the stories to go along with them.

Have a great weekend everyone. I have a friend coming down from the cities for the weekend so that should be a good time.

Peace and love to all.
-Northern Princess

ahh. The power of cheese

Okay so I don't know what this post is going to have to do with cheese but I thought it was a fun title for the day. I love Wednesday. I only have one class and it isn't until 6pm so it is a fantastically lazy day. I have to do some coaching this afternoon at 2 so I do need to shower soon but that can wait for awhile. BAD NEWS! My digital camera broke so I wont be able to put any pictures on here for awhile. Sorry. I wrote my first grad. school paper this morning. It was really dumb. I cant wait to come home. Only like 3 weeks to go!!! Well I need to go and start being motivated to move around. Unfortunately I have been a little obsessive with my iPod these days and all I have been doing is download music from all of me CD's. It is crazy. Anyways. I love you all.

...

Woke up this morning with a sense of urgency. Don't know why, until I realized that I had a dream last night the I was the WelshGoddess' agent and we had to get to a shoot today. I don't understand other then that lately I have been questioning if I should be here in the northland and the WelshGoddess wants me to come home for help with Rhet. Crit. Don't understand. Well I have to jet off to school now.

Monday, Monday

Once again the northern princess has found frustration and happiness among the land of technology. Not only did her student mess up big time and not turn in their assignments, they blamed it all on D2L which the northern princess knows was working cause she used it. But oh well, they get one strike.

The northern princess did not sleep well last night, all the thinking about teaching this week and about the crazy weekend kept her up all night. Finally at 6:30 the northern princess said "dammit, I need to sleep. I have to be on campus for 12 hours tomorrow." and magically she fell into a decent 2 hour nap. Unfortunately, the northern princess is not getting to bed much earlier this evening cause she is working on her lesson plans and trying to find ways to make the student not hate her, pay attention when she is giving assignments and make them understand that she will not be anyone mom this year and they all need to be adults for once.

But that is only part of it. The northern princess got herself and iPod last week from Dr. T. And she didn't have the software to get it to work, never mind that her software was so outdated that it wouldn't transfer anything anymore, anyways, the northern princess worked her magic and got an XP upgrade for cheap and now the northern princess is loading her iPod with her fav. music. Her new friend is blue and is needing suggestions for name, if anyone has suggestions, please tell the northern princess cause iPod really does want a name...

Well this princess needs to catch up on her beauty rest so she will go into the magical land of her room and get the required 5 hours of sleep, its 5 cause even though she is a princess she is still a student and 5 hours is all she can spare to sleeping. Have beautiful magical dreams everyone.