Picture Updates...it's been awhile.

NorthernPrincess and Bestfrienda always match, even if they don't plan it. (New Year's Eve Eve party that ruined the real New Year's Eve.)
NorthernPrincess and KristinFriend rockin it out at the end of the semester party.
ooo baby. NorthernPrinces and baby chillin' at RubyTuesday. This NorthernPrincess has got to get her one of those.
NorthernPrincess and Brock at the Dirty O. There's always something dirty at the Dirty O, but it isn't us. We're HOTT, even if Brock is turning into a mountain man.

Another week has passed...

So it has been awhile since I have posted. I wish I could say that there has been tons of fun things happening, but there hasn't. I travelled last weekend to Iowa, we had a good time, picked up three more quals. First day of class was last tuesday. It was okay. I was sick and didn't really feel like teaching. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday were spent in bed sleeping. Yesterday sucked really really bad. I dropped a class, decided that grad school may not be the place for me, cried alot, felt stupid. Got evals back from last semester. Just an all around bad day. So I need to get ready to go to school because I have to finish my lesson plans for tonights class and finish up some reading for my psych of women class. So good bye all. Lets hope today is better than yesterday.

You know that feeling you get after you've spent a bunch of time with people and then you go home and you are alone and it feels kinda funny? I feel like that. Except I feel like even though I spent the last weekend surrounded in love, I still felt alone and scared. I don't know why. I don't understand it. Maybe it is the drugs from the cold, maybe it is the seriousness of the talks, maybe it is the contemplation of the future. I don't exactly know what it is all I know is that I am lonely and I have to go to school tomorrow and I can't hear out of my left ear, my syllabus is not done, nor is my lesson plan, I want to go back to bed and sleep for like 47 hours until I don't feel sick anymore. Until I don't feel empty inside. Until I know that this is not a fluke. I finally quit feeling like everything would end tomorrow and now I feel like that again. I hate when I second guess my happiness, I think I deserve at least a little bit of it. Why do I always have to ruin the things that make me happy? Why does it have to hurt?

HoHmmm....

So the last few days have been pretty uneventful. I got the death plague and have been in bed for most of the last few days, only to get out of bed to drive to the store and get more medicine. But today I made it to the workday and it was totally worth it. It was awesome to see the kids working hard on their stuff again. Then I was offered the opportunity to go and judge at HFO which I unfortunately had to turn down due to the fact that I feel like total ass and being on no sleep for four day will not help my wellness factor. So I am not going and I am sad, and I am sick and it sucks. Ugh.

A flurry of activity...

Wow, so it has been at least a week since I last posted. In that time I have....
...had a crazy Christmas.
...saw John and his family.
...had a crazy new years eve eve
...had a lame, tired new years eve (not really, just a little uneventful.)
...went shopping with mom and dad
...saw friends from High School, we all felt old.
...chatted with Buddy big dog.
...missed Minnesota.
...spent some amazing quality time with my bestfrienda.
...lost a friend (I don't know why... I can't say I hurt to much about it.)
...gotten excited about school again.
...slept ALOT!
...danced.
...spent time in Minneapolis/St.Paul/Maplewood.
...attended a crazy Christmas party.
...told someone that they have bad technique.
...talked in my sleep about missing tournaments and getting on trains.
...laughed ALOT!
...cried a little.
...celebrated John's 5th Birthday.
...fought with Jezi-Bell.
...cleaned my room, kinda, okay not really.
...caught up on most of my t.v. shows.
...found myself again.
...caught a cold.
...attended a few interesting parties while back in NE.
...sang karaoke.
...made a few slams on persons and their being, but it was funny and I don't really remember it so I claim it to be okay.
...gotten caught.
...been scandalous.
and

remembered why I love home and why I love Minnesota.

So, as you can see it has been a pretty busy few weeks. I loved being home but it was definitely time to get back up to my own apartment, back to my life, back to my someone who was waiting for me. I'm sorry if I didn't get to see you when I was back, I am hoping to make it again before my birthday. I have TONS!! of pictures that I will try to load on here soon but I got a new camera awhile ago and I can't figure out how to do that. But I will try. I am going to try and be productive again but the meds I got are kinda kicking my butt and all I want to do is sleep.

Anyways, peace out, I love you all...

p.s. Happy 4, some of you may know what I mean.